Humility mixed with a little sarcasm

I fully admit I haven't been the picture of happiness today.  Tonight even I didn't go to Colby's Pack meeting because I was just too plain grumpy.  I would have been a HUGE fun sucker if I had gone.  Call it anxiety, stress, being overwhelmed with life as a mother of five…or whatever you want to call it…I could kill with dirty looks tonight.  (not proud about this)

Anyhoo…as I knelt down with Saylor as she said her prayers I was humbled and put in my place.

"Please bless if there is anyone in the world who is scared or frightened, that they will not be scared.  Please bless that Mom can be happy.  And please bless that Mom can get enough rest."

Yeah. 

 Nice.  

My happiness and sleep level is right up there with world peace according to my five year old daughter.    My grumpy and overwhelmed demeanor is obviously apparent to my children.  This fact gives me much reflection….

1.  My kids are affected by my nastiness.

2.  My kids, even though they fully act like I don't matter and I'm present just for their whims to be

          fulfilled, actually do care about me.

3. If they care about how grumpy I am…why in the world do they not realize if they just picked up 

    their stuff the first time I asked them, never fought with each other, ate what I served without  

    complaint, and wouldn't treat me like a waitress and laundry maid…I might be more pleasant to be 

    around.

4.  I'm grateful, despite my grumpiness, that my daughter realizes she can pray to a loving Heavenly 

     Father who will answer her prayers and help her (and me) have a better day tomorrow.  

5.  Being humbled by a five year old can be a bit humiliating.